Long Time No See

It's been three months I never updated anything in this bloggie. Nothing much have changed in my life, I am still single, still very much available. Party, dramas, troubles, happiness, all these are still going on for the past 3 months.

I feel like something strange going on with people around me, people who are close to me. But I am too retarded to show my care, unless you willing to share.

I am happy for myself, at least I am not as emotionally affected as how I used to be with everything happened around me.

Life still goes on.

All the best for my finals. All the best for my love life. :)

Lost

It was totally a mess, but I think is over now, for my part, at least.

I just have to move on and on

It Still Hurts

I heard it, the sound of my broken heart

I want to cry, all the way out, make myself feel better

But my tears can't find themselves a good reason to shed

It was meant to be broken

My heart, the Love

有感而发

感觉上，会有另一个低气压的氛围发生，做好了心理准备去看待这些事情，不是第一次了

他的前女友告诉他喜欢了另一个人，看见了他眼里的失落，问我该有什么感觉，听出了他心底的痛

她的男友即将要离开，之前的潇洒，之前的洒脱，完全看不见了，看见的，只是一个为爱傻傻在挣扎的女人

看见这些，也想起了自己，欺骗自己，好吗？我不知道

眼见他兴奋地准备迎接新生活，像个傻瓜一样站在旁边，问着，那自己该怎么办？又或者期待他会把自己纳入那新计划中，结果呢？自己把对方当成生命的一部分，对方却把自己看成一个过程，结束了，还会有下一个。还没有懂得怎么把这一部分拿掉，他已经开始了下一个过程，那自己又该怎么办？

她不是笨，我们看见的，她不会看不见，只是不想面对，把那些统统变成盲点，选择相信自己想的，努力，应该就会有好结果，即使看见了太多不可能

把自己逼进角落，认清了所有事情又会是个好结果吗？应该吧，不能爱，选择了恨，结果还只是伤了自己，因为看得开，但放不下，逼着自己把所有真相赤裸裸的摊在自己面前，心痛得无法承受，这样，又会好吗？

“自己把一切给了他，结果换来了什么？”这些，我们都问过自己，但总是忽略不了心底还想再为他做些什么，还想着自己有机会去为他付出什么，这想法，是该压抑，还是该表现?

我本来就不是一个有原则的人，在感情上，我更加不敢大言不惭地说自己一定会怎样，因为终究要面对的，还是自己，当你无法定义什么是爱的时候，你又该怎么找到自己的标准？

Women, they want things in simple, but always tend to turn the situation a lot more complicated to obtain the simplest goal. Women are basically trouble, they love you, they like you, but they can never tell you what they want exactly, cause they don't exactly know what they want. First, maybe they want to make sure that you like/love them, then they want somekind of feeling being assured, then they want for promises, then they want it forever. They want everything, but always forgot what they need.

My Blasting Sunday

It was a nice sunday, wake up very very early. Went to TITI for a one day trip with my dear poppa, momma, ah Bi, Sherry, and uncle and auntie. Had our breakfast there. Sleepie @.@

=Famous kuih in TITI, been on Tv before lerr=

=Birds Fight=

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Then we quickly rush back home in the afternoon, cause we have other plans, hehe.. bao ba zang!!!

Auntie Ivy be our si fu and teach us step my step how to make a niceee ba zang.

=The Ingredients=

=Me concentrating in making the nicest Ba Zang=

=Tasha's piece of art=

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Then rush back to Sunway again after my nicee sunday reunion dinner, and meet up with my frens. They want drink, I don't enjoy it. So I suggest a place we all can have fun. Karaoke!!!!! They drink, I sing, Win-Win rite?

=Danial.CY.Edwin.Stefanie.Me=

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My lil niece just cut all her hair even her eyebrow into botak today, but ah yi was too busy to go visit her today. Hmm... Cant wait to see her, my cute lil fellow.

Thats all for my sunday.

I want to go Zouk this thurs, anyone???

Love don't come cheap

I still remember how I brought up myself from the previous time I failed, I still remember how people saying that I look more beautiful than before. But this time, I still seems like retarded afterall. No one failed me, except for myself. I tried so hard to make myself look better, happier, but it wasn't real. I still feel lonely somehow, I still look up for someone's care pathetically, when I know it wasn't suppose to be like this. I don't need that to move on, when at the end I will just digging the hole deeper and deeper.

I am a very emotional person, always do things without any thinking. I want a lot of support, a lot of positive energy from everyone, some courage maybe. Isn't it obvious that I am bring up myself, a bit slow, a bit retarded maybe, but at least I still trying.

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I am very bad in dealing with guys, I actually prefer they turn out to me first. If you are interested, do let me know, don't put me on try, cause I am definitely the worse player in this game.

I got freaked out, from the past relationships, that promises can't be trust, that "I Love You" can't be trust, that "I Will Try" can't be trust. I wanted it so badly and ends up I lost all my bet. It was a wrong game, with the wrong player, wrong chips.

All I want now is just something easy, really easy, just company, probably two lonesome walks together and be with each other.

Guess I am just too lonely.

I had lots of grumpy these few days, getting emo cause feeling myself unappreciated, but God guide me to this video. Once again, I remember I am so blessed that everyone I loved still besides me.

Thank you, for reminded me once again that I am blessed.